Tuesday, 31 October 2006

HELP!!!


Oh dear ... I need help.
All my buttons are being pushed and my many insecurities have come rushing to the forefront....
I have a meeting tomorrow regarding a website i have been booked to create FOR MONEY!!!
Oh my god - I have 3 websites that i have created out there in cyberspace at the moment. One for the school that i created and update every week at work, and the education department pays me to do that amongst other things, so that is ok. I also have two more that i have done for love.
Ok - here is where i fall down.
This is what i seem to be unable to 'get'.
I have value!!!
My time is valuable as is my knowledge!!!
I have a skill that not everyone else has, and it is fair and right for me to be paid for something that i can do that they cannot - especially when they have plenty of money to pay me...
I do....
I can.....
So if i believe all that (which i do in my head but not my heart {or is it the other way round}) why do i feel like i am being a fraud, or a rip off or something - i dont know what - why dont i get it. I 'do' australian bush flower essences and have given away far more then i have ever charged for..... idiot i know.
Its self worth (or lack thereof) and self confidence too.
Although i KNOW i will do a great job because i have a fine attention to detail and always put in 110%. Why do i freak at charging for my skills.
This comes up for me over and over again, obviously because it remains un-dealt with - long sigh....
When will i get it.....
Woe is me.........
Jen
xxx

6 comments:

Cyndy said...

Mechanics get paid..teachers get paid..doctors get paid...cleaners get paid..babysitters get paid..dance teachers get paid..google creators get paid, as do the guys who started utube..All utilise their individual skills, as do you...you craft, create, use your time, you should get paid; this is not time spent with your children, or your family. Get paid for it! You are worth it!!! xox

Anchell said...

Charge em lots!!
There is a time for freebies and a time for earning......I of course will require a freebie so you better charge double for this one!
Prioritise.......you are worth money jen, you are SMART and CAPABLE and TALENTED and DEDICATED and that is why people pay other people to do things for them.....

rainbowspirit said...

funny you should say 'dance teachers' cyndy as it is kira's dance studio that i will be doing!!

Elizabeth said...

you are having the same battle about self worth that I have had & continue to have all my life. I HATE charging for things, yet I realsie if I dont get paid I end up bitter & resentful.
I do about 95% of my stuff by doantion becasue I still feel like such a fraud.......

I am learning to have faith in me- so will you...... x

Rylah said...

You are worth every penny Jen - believe in yourself.... we all do!
:)

Cyndy said...

I've done some of these things..not the ones that paid so well, unfortunately..maybe I didn't really get paid enough when I was teaching dance, especially; it's hard to quantify/qualify monetary worth when you're dong something that you really love, but wages aren't just compensation for time lost, are they?