n. pl. loy·al·ties
1. The state or quality of being loyal.
2. A feeling or attitude of devoted attachment and affection. Often used in the plural: My loyalties lie with my family.
I have had cause lately to wonder about the LOYALTY of some of the people I know...
Because of this I have come to realise that this trait is something that is VERY important to me. It is essential, in fact.
Believe me when I say that I am not asking of you, any more than I would ask of myself. If you are important in my life (you know who you are) you can count on me. I would go to the ends of the earth for you and will 'have your back' WITHOUT FAIL!!
I mean that....
And I have had cause to prove this to you. On more than one occasion during our long association. Many more.
So imagine my surprise when you betrayed me in the most hurtful way. By accepting an invitation to celebrate the life of the person that has HURT ME THE MOST in this lifetime.
UN-apologetically?? Your surprise at my hurt would have been funny if wasn't even more hurtful. It never occurred to you that I might be hurt by your actions. Apparently.....
Let me fill you in on a little secret, because at this point I am pretty sure that you are clueless as to this concept right now. As one of the handful of people that I would go to the ends of the earth to without thought, were the situation reversed, I would be sitting with you, around a table, a glass of wine, some cheese and crackers, carefully planning his demise. Painful and drawn out it would be. He would be sorry he messed with you, and if he messes with you, he messes with me also. Because I love you like a sister.
So if my partner were having a milestone birthday, and he said, hey, lets invite her ex. I would scream NOOOOOOOO. Are you fucking KIDDING!!!!!
I wish you screamed that for me.
Now... I am to be put in the position of discomfort. At the place of my very own 'sister'. I am to share this space with the arsehole of the century.