Thursday, 31 January 2008
trouble is ......
my life is mostly boring, mundane, or downright depressing. with golden moments. snippets.
i get up. i live, clean, shop, cook, think. go to bed.
i read blogs. i play scrabble. i read books.
s o m e t i m e s i blog.....
its the THINKING bit that often does me in.
i read a blog today where a very clever lady spoke about how she thought she needed 'balance' in her life. which is what i think i need too (along with peace and money). She has however discovered that it isnt 'balance' per se that she needs, but 'control'.
this set me thinking......
most of my life is 'out of control' which is why i think i need 'balance'.
my kids are 'out of control' lots
my house is always 'out of control'
my time is often 'out of my control'
my emotions are often 'reacting' and so... 'out of control'.
my body is most certainly 'out of control'.
what i need to do is to take back 'control'.
and by this i do not mean 'rigidity', things can still be 'fluid' - but 'controlled'.
i also think i have totally lost 'control' of the ''''''s in this pist.
so what now?????????
where to start.
am feeling overwhelmed a bit by this, and must break down 'control' into manageable pieces - one step at a time.... moment by moment..... day by day.
going now to think......... where to start.
methinks 'organisation' which is definately 'control' is a Virgo thing..... of which i am most definately not like. HOWEVER I have four planets plus midheaven in Virgo..... i have always known that my mission is to become 'more virgo' - get attuned so-to-speak. Now i think i have a clue as to where to start.......
taa taa for now
take care my friends
sending huge healing to 'Chelles mum...... and 'Chelle..... and her family.... hugs to you
damn public hospital system...... no heart
Tuesday, 22 January 2008
Still waiting for a Source Card image....
Have spent some time to dialogue with a couple of my cards, including this one. The process is definately easier the more times you do it - I suppose i have been putting it off a little, it is a bit confronting at times i have found.
Kathleen, I have been struggling to fill in the "How will I remember?" section. I cant remember what I am supposed to put there.
Looking totally forward to coming along to the group next month and showing off my new cards. I am very pleased and in love with the whole thing, it speaks to so many aspects of me and makes so much sense, not all of which can be adequately put into words. EVERYONE should be doing this.
Monday, 21 January 2008
still drinking dusty shakes for breakfast and most lunches. am feeling more energetic and hopeful for the future. sick to death of being a fat chick and love the latest fashions that just dont look the same if you are not thin..... i have time....
kira cleaned her room last night, it has been an ongoing battle with her. I actually forgot what colour her carpet was! Here is how i did it, her birthday is coming up in March and I told her that I was going to clean her rooom for her..... she looked smug til i told her that i would be charging her $15 per hour and that total fee would come off the total of her birthday money.... hee hee, within a couple of hours i could hear her cleaning up.... VICTORY IS MINE!!!!! its probably poor form to gloat, but hey, whatever works.
its amazing how low a person will stoop when driven.... now just to get her to keep it that way. I am a very bad housekeeper and let things build up on me too, so i am not a good example for her...
having said that, i might go now and clean up my own room, joy, fun, yay. Not.
enjoy your day
Friday, 18 January 2008
Five reasons why I hate the school holidays
1. Because I
2. We dont have enough money to go on holidays or do lots of things so everyone ends up really bored and irritating.
3. Because everyone is bored and irritated, everyone irritates everyone else as much as possible for entertainment.
4. My space is seriously invaded. During school holidays i have NO personal space that is not punctuated by some childs screams.
5. The television is on for most of the day. (please dont be the "parenting police" and tell me how bad television is for children, i dont care)
Well thats it for today.....
I need to go and get ready now, i am going to lunch with the girls from work, and have secured babysitting (yippeee - adult company).
Catch you then
Tuesday, 15 January 2008
I absolutely love this one.. it is a doorway, cant wait to dialogue with it and see what comes up.
Kids being awful today, back to normal.
going to see if i can do more collage... still got one half done card happening.
Monday, 14 January 2008
so, all in all it has probably been the most peaceful day of the holidays so far.
Had a great few days prior too - (gee, my starting sentences dont make much sense now do they) my soul sister came up from cowra to visit for a few days - muchly cool - most of our outings involved someone getting a hole poked in them somewhere, not really but there were lots of piercings done. Airlie had her tongue pierced, i had none and cindy had three, one tongue, one back of hand and one chest - although that sounds horrific, it actually looks really really good. if i was a braver person, i might consider it myself. Airlie is having a little trouble eating but other then a little bit of blood and a raging hunger she is fine.
We went to the farmers market at the showground on sunday. Stinking hot but was good. I specifically wanted to buy some lemon myrtle soap and see Monica the crystal lady. Neither stall was there (puke) but i bought a plant and some soap from another lady. Had some turkish flatbread thingy with beef spinach and c heese and was most yummy whilst watching the slightly alternate world go past.
Regarding the challenge..... well..... as you probably guessed, i fell off the wagon. I just dont bloody 'do' chew in the morning. So i went and bought myself meal replacing shake thingy yesterday and intend on boring myself stupid with those for breakfast and lunch. with all my food issues, i actually dont mind the flavour of the vanilla one and all its dusty aftertaste. bearable definately and much preferable to chewing. Now if i could just move my huge carcass around in some kind of exercise regularly i would be home and hosed. Am working on it and have done some swimming here and there AND i have done a bit of walking...... hey, rome wasnt built in a day.
Going now to play scrabble. sorry about the bird kristy, wish i could help you but i cant....
Thursday, 3 January 2008
Wednesday, 2 January 2008
Exercise - I just got back from a walk for supplies down to Bilo, probably almost two kilometers - made the obligatory half an hour. I am now going to go and get into the pool as i am hot and smelly for sure.
Life going on as usual, kids fighting - gotta love the holidays.
Yesterday was monumental in one way. I finally uploaded the book by Shirley Darby that i have been preparing to the publisher. God it was hard letting go of my baby like that. I just hope to god it gets there as it was sent and nothing has moved. It was a big job and am really glad its over. Now Shirley wants me to come down for a chakra balancing and reading... and i want to let her!! sounds just the ticket. And she will pay me when i get there.
well going for a dip now
Tuesday, 1 January 2008
- Breakfast - yes... well, three hours late - it was three hours after i got up that i remembered... its a slow start i know but i eventually got there - will endeavour to make it quicker tomorrow.
- Exercise - hopped into the pool with the kids (my first swim this season, it has to be warm as a bath to get me in) water temp just bearable - swam a few laps, kickboarded a few laps and played cricket with a blow up ball and a water skateboard - heaps of fun for the whole family. Very happy with that.
Tired now - and cranky. As is everyone here. The girls got to bed at about 3am, I went at about 1, Egan about 12.30. Everyone is super sensitive - early nights for everyone tonight, cant wait til tomorrow.
I am really excited about the new year. Want to try to do the tarot layout Lisa explained in her pist today - might go and do it now while they are in the pool and i have five minutes peace.
Lots of love to all my blogging friends
May 2008 be the start of a magickal new cycle for you (and me)