Saturday, 3 January 2009
to be happy
I posted a couple of days ago about my decision to be happy.
Its not like i am miserable all the time or anything... only sometimes..... hmm
But more like - I consciously want to create happy spaces for myself. I thought about this a lot over the last couple of days and realised that I actually do spend quite a bit of my time doing things that I enjoy. Its just that often my awareness is not there. I am either 'escaping', or 'avoiding' or just being downright mindless. The first thing I intend to do this year - in my quest to 'turn the frown upside down' - is to recognise and appreciate the moments (even if it is only a moment) that I am engaged in an enjoyable activity. I will try not to waste these moments by thinking serious or worrying thoughts. I will not waste this time being 'absent'.
Even now, I am using my computer which makes me happy, enjoying the cool air, listening to some beautiful music and loving the scent of my favourite incense.... yet I find I have to consciously seek these sensory gifts as my mind is furiously trying to find the right words for this pist. hmmmmm
I am trying to 'rein' in my scatterdness. I will begin (now) to pay attention to what my head is thinking and where it is taking my thoughts. It often operates without my permission - so I will try to regain control of this. I will allocate times (brief ones) in which I will allow myself to sit and think and worry for a very short period of time - so this is then done and need not bother my leisure time....
The Dalai Lama said that the meaning of life was 'to be happy and useful'. I figure I am indeed useful - to a number of people - so all that remains is to be happy.
My quest..... i have chosen to accept it...