I might call it -
The perspective from the see saw...
maybe One minute you are up, the next you are down
or Up Down Up
Am shaking my head at my life and thinking - no wonder I am a freaking nutcase.....
I have spent a reallly nice day, just quietly, in front of the air conditioner (thank the goddess for that), reading, on the computer... lovely.
When out of the blue comes a huge pile of doo doo dumped right in front of me.. nothing but to fall over it, face first.
Deal with that..
Then off to the Cottage for a wonderful night, with humungous belly laughs with the girls for Debs birthday dinner - HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEB!! LOVE YA!!!! You girls are sooo much fun - missed you Lisa.
Then home again and all is calm again.
I think it is the huge swinging emotional dramas of having two hormonal teenage girls in the house, plus my own hormones - and i am probably in the early stages of menopause, judging from my hot flushes etc. No wonder this is a freak show at times.
I just dont know how to deal with it. Like you are walking along, humming a little tune, when out of the blue someone belts you over the head with a dead fish. Whammo. Didnt even see it coming.
I hate it. I cant do anything about it - cept try to survive emotionally myself. Its hard and sometimes I reallly struggle. I am super sensitive. I cant help that, its just me.
I wonder for what reason this is upon me to learn about and so just let me learn it and lets move on. NEXT!!!!!!!
am sick of it
i just want to be happy
oh well... onwards we go.....