I want to say thank you soo soo much for all of the support and encouragement after my last pathetic post. It makes such a huge difference to be able to speak and be understood.
That is one of my biggest problems here. With my kids and even my husband - i am unable to communicate effectively. It drives me NUTS. I am on drops for that, hopefully will make progress soon.
Things are progressing slowly here. We seem to be taking three steps forward and two backwards lately. Although there has been occasions where we have taken three or four backwards... I think yesterday was one of those days. Those are the days that do me in.
I am way way too sensitive. I also tend to overreact at times and it is based in fear. I know. I need to let it go. And in a big way.
Its hard when it is your kid. Even if they are almost fully grown. It still can hurt.
Still, we soldier on. Teensy step forward. Will know more in the morning.
Sorry about the snake story. It truly was a shocker. My apologies to those that are still having nightmares..... trust me, so am I. My home feels violated now - its an awful feeling. I dont know how long it will take me to get over it.. I had a smaller, less venemous snake in my outdoor area six years ago and i still scan the whole floor with my eyes every time i walk through there. Oh well... May the Goddess protect us.
Ok - a really freaky thing happened this evening.
I was taking my daughters friend home, along a stretch of road, about five kilometers of bushland and farms. A freaky thing happened and I am not sure i will be able to explain it properly. I will try.
At the side of the road i saw, right in the middle of the windscreen the bushes and grasses at the side of the road (on the left) travelling next to me whooshing, it looked like if you see the bushes in the rear view mirror from a bad angle.. you know?? I went like 'WTF??', no sooner then i thought this, then it whooshed over to the other side of the road and whooshed through the bushes on my right and disappeared. My gob dropped open. It was like an invisible something as big as an elephant was zooming through the bush.
I KID YOU NOT.
Im like.. Okkkaaaaaay. Officially freaked out now. I have no explanation except for an alien or a ghost. And it could have been either because I happen to believe in them both. Freaky.
and NO - I had not been drinking.