Fell into the hole again.
Have a little trouble dragging myself out today. See the problem. Keep falling in anyway.
Same old story.
I wont bore you yet again.
Sometimes I astound myself at my stupidity.
How much pain I am willing to endure.
Before I will be forced to act.
I have been waiting for love to act on its own I think.
It was waiting for me too.
Sometimes just loving isn't enough.
I am looking forward to going to my dear cottage tonight.
I will probably cry again.
I make a habit of that often lately.
They will be sick of me soon and say 'piss off'.
No they wont.
They will keep standing me back up and pushing me back out there into the pain.
The pain that will force me to act.
And if all else fails.
I will let time heal.
And get on with the business of healing me.
And give time time.
Whilst healing me.