Tuesday, 3 March 2009

resurfacing

I want to thank all my wonderful bloggie friends for their support after my huge rant in the last post. I have been overwhelmed with what was written and it has made a HUGE difference to my frame of mind, knowing that i have been so accepted and understood by you. Acceptance has always been a thing of mine, I have often felt that I dont quite fit in ... I feel blessed and am very very grateful to have your support.. yes you.

In other news... I am building my strength and am ok. Things have settled down a LOT here... I have had a good long hard look at myself and have figured out some strategies to support myself here. To strengthen my strengths and build up my weaknesses. To increase communication and act, not re-act.

I can only change myself - I cant change others. And I know that if I want things to change, I need to change the way I do things - for while ever I do the same, I will get the same result . I am doing all I can for now. One step at a time... one foot in front of the other. If I make a mistake, it will not be the end of the world - I will have learned what doesnt work.

Ok - onwards and upwards.

Thank you for your support my friends... ♥

8 comments:

Cyndy said...

Hi Jen. I am glad that yo feel somewhat better. I'm sorry that I haven't been able to comment earlier.
I can only re-iterate what others have said re your girls. They will get better. You will find that they are not as disrepectful with others, so take some comfort from that. Other people probably think that your girls are wonderful, with the wonderful behaviours that you have instilled in them. But.... I really know where you're coming from.

Re the husband...... I'd bet that he's shit scared of the ramifications & outcome if he was to actually discuss what's going on, so it's just easier to pretend & ignore the situation. Not an adult response, but this is a male that we're talking about. And as you say, your feelings are yours, not his. It seems that this would be more than he can deal with. Hiding in a marriage is easy...... And it's so easy to lose the real intimacies that are so important within a relationship. Do you really hate him, or the way he responds (or doesn't respond) to your needs, Jen?

You needs to address your own needs before you attampt to 'fix' anything else, Jen. Please don't throw the baby out with the bath water.

Love to you. xoxo

Lisa said...

I love you xx

Audrey said...

Ah, so good to hear you are feeling better and that you have a plan in place! We are all here for you - we love you! Stay strong! And when that becomes challenging, give another shout-out.
Big hugs,
audrey
xoxoxo

Michelle said...

Good girl. xxxxxxxx

Anonymous said...

Good for you to have re-thought your ideas. Very difficult to do when everything is right in your face.

Baby steps and a huge feeling of self worth will make improvements in your life.
Best, best wishes,
Olivia.
My ISP is so slow due to a satellite connection that I don't usually comment BUT I will be watching out for you....

Myst_72 said...

I'm so pleased you are feeling better about things.

Take care!!

G
xx

Renee said...

Yes one foot in front of the other, that is all any of us can do.

Take care.

Self-Proclaimed Mistress of Nothing said...

Acceptance is a wonderful thing, isn't it? It brings a breeze of peace over you and lightens your heart.

Yep, one foot in front of the other, one step at a time, then -- one day -- you look down and see how far you've climbed and you can't help but smile. :-)