Ok - am still here.
Had a LOVELY lunch today at SJ's in Hamilton with my dear friend Lea. We have been friends since Kinder and she is one of the most amazing people i know. I am very lucky arent I. I have LOTS of amazing friends (yes you - you know who you are). We talked and talked. We whinged and whinged. We laughed and laughed. We talked without words and understood without explanations. Awesome. Love you Lea Lea
Had my appointment yesterday with Mel. Some progress has been made. I explained things she needed clarification about. This had the effect of making things clearer to me too. Some things that I have dismissed as unimportant have indeed been affecting more then i realised. Some things will need more talk. I have some homework. (Lisa, will you call her and let her know my track record on this one?) And yes, I have a doctors appointment on Friday afternoon to discuss the possibility of me embarking on the 'Happy Pill' journey. Hmmmmm........ Bit scared.
Have had a brainwave too. This might interest you Faerie. I mentioned in my last post that I am focussing on aspects of me that I feel are positive. Thus integrating and accepting them as me. Proving to myself that I am not so bad after all. Well I am going to make SoulCollage cards of them. Bring them from thought into the physical. Have been searching for images when I can, will blog the results when i manage to stick them down.
Anyway. Thats my pity party over. Am regaining myself bit by bit. And I know i sound a bit pathetic here, but, this has been a pretty intense couple of weeks for me. Incomparable to others pain, but real nontheless. I wish i was stronger. I will be stronger. I will be more confident. Am taking dolly steps here, but they ARE going forward... and will continue to do so.
Thinking of my beautiful friends and their families that are doing it tough at the moment. Lots of people are being forced to reach further inside at the moment. . . . .
Have a lovely Wednesday.