Ok, it certainly seems to be a few weeks of tough lessons for little ole me. I have been struggling today. An issue of trust and faith. I have been pushed again to the very limits of myself.
Note to the universe - NEED A LITTLE BREATHER HERE!!! Sorry for yelling. Just making sure you can hear me..... sigh.
In all of these piles of excrement that I have found myself in lately - I am VERY PROUD to inform you, my friends, that never ever even once have I felt like a ciggy. I am soooo proud of myself. I have tested it in my mind. Even today - I thought to myself - 'self, would a cigarette calm you down' and the answer was a resounding NO!!! Dont be ridiculous. Incredible. It has been about 7 1/2 months now. I can honestly say, never, in any moment, have I seriously entertained the thought of having a puff. Very happy with that.
Anyway.. will be back tomorrow. It is late and I am tired. I will try to get some sleep - wish me luck.