Monday, 11 May 2009

Monday

So much going on in this little head of mine.. it feels like it is going to explode.

I have managed a full 24 hours ish of uninterrupted thinking (I did go to work for five hours, bit of a break from my head).

Sooo much going on.

I sit here, alone - everyone in bed - ahhh luxury. Some vegetable soup is bubbling away on the stove, kitty is here keeping me company. I have lost literally hours from my consciousness as I retreat into my head. Odd... very odd.

Strange energy here. I wonder if it has anything to do with the full moon. Full in Scorpio. Scorpio is all about what is below the surface. What is hidden and taboo. Skeletons in closets etc. Stuff that has been hidden from my view or contemplation for a really long time.

I have been looking in particular at how others seem to perceive me. I dont like it much. I have been in some kind of self preservation void, you know, hide my true self so it cant get hurt.. Hmmm. Lots and lots still to think about. Not least, how to make the changes necessary. I think I am in the process of a transformation and transition periods are always hard.

Ok, am hitting the sack now

My first school term Tuesday off tomorrow in over a year.

Will spend it pottering and doing a bit of homework.. seeds perhaps??

Luv Jen
xoxox

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(¸.·´Lotsa luv from
Jen
xoxo

4 comments:

Natalie said...

Goodnight love, enjoy your sleep.xx♥

Paula said...

Jen, I can relate so much. not just abusy mind, but close to " system overload". Have realised I neglected myself, hiding myself, acted not too responsible lately. Decided to date myself. To fall in love with me again. Even that feels like a quest. But wow, its worthwhile. Big hug around the globe. Paula

Michelle said...

Seems to have been that kind of week doesn't it.

xxx

Lisa said...

yep
everyone who perceives me, perceives me wrong........... because they see something i am not
i am horrible really