We had a wonderful 'reunion' today.
Lots of deep and meaningful conversation.
Lots to learn - seeds to plant and watch grow and an amazing new folder decorated by Deb to be envious of. You KNOW we are all copying that, dont you Deb???
It has been a rollercoaster couple of weeks. Mostly dominated by the Sweet 16th of eldest daughter next monday. (did i say SWEET???)
I have been shopping until i have been dropping. This has been quite fun actually - with a serious change in attitude after i read the riot act before we left. Much more respectful - this is good. I now only have to sew up the sleep suit that she has been begging for over the past couple of months. You know - all in ones with feet and a zipper up the front - polar fleece. I am only stumped as to where to purchase the gripper fabric for the soles of the feet. Might have to use suede. Bloody teenagers !!!
Middle child syndrome is representing the school tomorrow in a touch football gala day. Very excited, although the occasion called for a new pair of footy boots. Do you know how hard it is to find footy boots at the end of footy season. Trust me, it is very hard. She is also heading to Narromine in a couple of weeks for THREE DAYS representing the school at sports. Wow. Three days of peace (well, relative anyway). Most excellent.
Enough about them.
My attention has been drawn lately a few times regarding 'Truth'.
Most specifically when someone tells me something and i just take it on face value - and later find out that the person has taken 'liberties' with the truth.
I am not generally a naive person. But i am not suspicious either. If someone tells me something in earnest i believe them.
I want to know how I can be more on my guard so i am not getting taken for a ride. This is happening often enough so to annoy me.
I DONT WANT to be suspecting or questioning everything people say to me. And once i have been alerted to an individuals propensity to lie, i am more watchful - but it is the initial time.
WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO LIE. Why cant they just tell the truth. Especially for silly little things. I dont get it.
When someone is just 'high noting themselves', or trying to make themselves look good. Thats annoying too. I dont recongise those ones till its too late. Then i feel silly. Then i feel annoyed that they have made me feel silly.
Its a cruel cruel world.
Going now to search for my seed on google.
Thursday, 7 August 2008
Monday, 21 July 2008
defining me....
an interesting project - and a challenge to all you mary's out there - create your own wordle - define you
STILL dont have my computer... very sad
at least i have this old dinosaur to use - bit slow though, must... pedal.... harder.......
----BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW ----
YAY
on the other hand - i cant sleep til i want to get up - a school holiday luxury
and am working tomorrow - will look forward to wednesday so i can do what i wanna do, be what i wanna be yeah... oohh
looking forward to group tomorrow night
serious issues to be discussed there - you should come - really
Sunday, 20 July 2008
Soul aspects - more thought....
I have been thinking still about the soul thing that we talked about at last weeks group. In particular, the astrology aspect, as you know i am into that.
I think we forgot to take into account free will. and how we assumed that we would complete the lessons of the sign we are born into in any lifetime. because, here i am - living proof - that we can struggle indefinately to live up to our sign. I have known that i have a mission to become more 'virgo' in this lifetime and have known it for more then a decade. yet still, would rather live 'in my head' - without really getting it. if i died tomorrow, i would have to do the virgo thing again, (i have blown it before, this i know) until i learn it and live it. so - on the subject of say, twins etc. and there only being one aspect of a soul in a sign at any one time, and completing the whole 'wheel' so to speak - i have come to the following conclusion.
I accept the 12 aspects of soul is real. one stays on high and the others are out there living in 3d. i accept that astrology plays a big part in this - and our chart is the blueprint of what we have to learn in this incarnation. that the 11 aspects are contributing to the whole. paying - creating karma. (hmmm - there is another thought - do aspects of the soul pay back or create karma that another aspect has to fulfill??) and because we have free will, and are having a human experience, we will not always 'get it'. In fact, i would guess that more often then not, we dont get it. So the experiences of each astrological sign would have to be experienced several times before being 'achieved' or 'passing'. Sooooo - twins - i believe that twins are aspects of the same soul undertaking a double lesson in the sign, possibly because the energy has either been blocked, misused or not learned during previous lifetimes.
Ok - thats it.
Wondering if we should have a short period of time on tuesday nights in order to share the conclusions (if any) that have arisen since the last weeks' discussion.
Just a thought
Still waiting for my computer - hopefully it will be ready tomorrow
I think we forgot to take into account free will. and how we assumed that we would complete the lessons of the sign we are born into in any lifetime. because, here i am - living proof - that we can struggle indefinately to live up to our sign. I have known that i have a mission to become more 'virgo' in this lifetime and have known it for more then a decade. yet still, would rather live 'in my head' - without really getting it. if i died tomorrow, i would have to do the virgo thing again, (i have blown it before, this i know) until i learn it and live it. so - on the subject of say, twins etc. and there only being one aspect of a soul in a sign at any one time, and completing the whole 'wheel' so to speak - i have come to the following conclusion.
I accept the 12 aspects of soul is real. one stays on high and the others are out there living in 3d. i accept that astrology plays a big part in this - and our chart is the blueprint of what we have to learn in this incarnation. that the 11 aspects are contributing to the whole. paying - creating karma. (hmmm - there is another thought - do aspects of the soul pay back or create karma that another aspect has to fulfill??) and because we have free will, and are having a human experience, we will not always 'get it'. In fact, i would guess that more often then not, we dont get it. So the experiences of each astrological sign would have to be experienced several times before being 'achieved' or 'passing'. Sooooo - twins - i believe that twins are aspects of the same soul undertaking a double lesson in the sign, possibly because the energy has either been blocked, misused or not learned during previous lifetimes.
Ok - thats it.
Wondering if we should have a short period of time on tuesday nights in order to share the conclusions (if any) that have arisen since the last weeks' discussion.
Just a thought
Still waiting for my computer - hopefully it will be ready tomorrow
Friday, 18 July 2008
Exiled in exile
Oh dear
My worst nightmare has come true (well one of them anyway)
My best friend - my computer - is sick and at the doctors.
I dont know when i will get it back.
Hopefully it will be ready tomorrow - maybe monday at the latest.
Very sad
I miss my computer because all my friends live there.
sniff sniff
sigh
So - I guess i will have to become a domestic goddess instead. Clean up the floordrobe and wash some clothes.
Hopefully I will be able to come to Full Moon ritual tonight. Depends upon what time his lordship gets home.
thinking about my friends
Kathleens amazing abilites which obviously knows no limits
'Chelle
Lisa's mum
Diana's free word bank (yay) and moon cookies
why deb needs a new stick
journeys - that start with a single step
essences and how i have run out of mulla mulla
how to keep the kidslocked in their cupboards amused for just three more days
hmmm
thats enough dribble
might even go and make a card
luv me
xoxo
My worst nightmare has come true (well one of them anyway)
My best friend - my computer - is sick and at the doctors.
I dont know when i will get it back.
Hopefully it will be ready tomorrow - maybe monday at the latest.
Very sad
I miss my computer because all my friends live there.
sniff sniff
sigh
So - I guess i will have to become a domestic goddess instead. Clean up the floordrobe and wash some clothes.
Hopefully I will be able to come to Full Moon ritual tonight. Depends upon what time his lordship gets home.
thinking about my friends
Kathleens amazing abilites which obviously knows no limits
'Chelle
Lisa's mum
Diana's free word bank (yay) and moon cookies
why deb needs a new stick
journeys - that start with a single step
essences and how i have run out of mulla mulla
how to keep the kids
hmmm
thats enough dribble
might even go and make a card
luv me
xoxo
Wednesday, 16 July 2008
The Journey
The Journey
It seems that I have a very great need to get organised. I have known this for at least a dozen years - although it is a quite distasteful job and much prefer to live in my head, although it seems that this is proving to be my undoing. I spread myself too thin (bit like vegemite) while trying to do too many things at once. There is lots lots more - it is quite fascinating really. It all ties in. My friend the astrologer has prescribed for me a bottle of Aussie bush flower essences for what is going on for me right now - and it is all connected - everything. All coming to me at once. Confirmation is good. I am on the right track is good. I just need to get off my butt and get out of my head and just do it.
So off to finish off everything i can find here.... chocolate cake, a bottle of chardy..........
sorry
bit silly really
just when i was trying to be serious
I drew this card at Lisa's Womens Spiritual Group on Tuesday night.
The Journey
Lisa instructed us to blog about our card so here I go (c'mon Faerie, where is yours??)
I have been pondering the Journey since then. I have come to the conclusion that there are many Journeys in my life. My journey as a wife and mother, my creative journey, my career, my spiritual journey, my wiccan journey... I could go on but you get the idea. Then there is the big one. The Journey. Capital letters even. The amalgamation of all those journeys which is the Journey of my Life.
Some of these journeys i am going ahead with in leaps and bounds. some have stalled like some shitbox old car on the side of a hill and no-one really knows how to get it going again. Some take two steps forward and one back.
Overall, I dont know.
The image on the card was a labrynth. Life truly is a labrynth and i am the first one to admit, that in many areas I am clueless. I am wandering around in a bit of a daze, often chasing my tail, completely scattered.
This all ties in with the work I have been doing trying to understand my life in relation to my North and South Node (astrological chart). this is EXTREMELY interesting and I can totally relate to what i have read so far.
It seems that I have a very great need to get organised. I have known this for at least a dozen years - although it is a quite distasteful job and much prefer to live in my head, although it seems that this is proving to be my undoing. I spread myself too thin (bit like vegemite) while trying to do too many things at once. There is lots lots more - it is quite fascinating really. It all ties in. My friend the astrologer has prescribed for me a bottle of Aussie bush flower essences for what is going on for me right now - and it is all connected - everything. All coming to me at once. Confirmation is good. I am on the right track is good. I just need to get off my butt and get out of my head and just do it.
So off to finish off everything i can find here.... chocolate cake, a bottle of chardy..........
sorry
bit silly really
just when i was trying to be serious
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)