F*%k its hot

yep



its hot


I am a lot calmer now re K's back. Thanks for all your stories and feedback - will wait patiently till we see the doc on tuesday arvo.

thanks again


I dont know which background I like best.... this one or the floral one.


Happy Beltaine everyone

xoxo

Damn

Got word from the doctors surgery a little while ago that K needs to come in next week for a follow up visit.

Yesterday she had an xray of her lumbar and sacral region for a sore back she has been having.

Apparently she has a 'twist in her spine'. The doctor was so busy that i couldnt speak to him to find out what this means in real terms.

I have to wait til next tuesday arvo.

damn

not worrying will be hard

for me especiallly


frik - this kid is incredibly physical. it WILL be ok - i know it.

i searched it up on the net and came up with something called Scoliosis. I looked at her xray myself and noticed there is a slight bend..... very slight though. not like what i saw on the net.


and i thought i had enough to contend with already....

damn


anyone know anything about this????

All women should live so long as to be this kind of old lady!

Toward the end of Sunday service, the Minister asked, 'How many of you have forgiven your enemies?'

80% held up their hands.

The Minister then repeated his question.

All responded this time, except one small elderly lady.

'Mrs. Neely?'; 'Are you not willing to forgive your enemies?'

I don't have any.' She replied, smiling sweetly.

'Mrs. Neely, that is very unusual How old are you?'

'Ninety-eight.' she replied.

'Oh, Mrs. Neely, would you please come down in front & tell us all how a person can live ninety-eight years & not have an enemy in the world?'

The little sweetheart of a lady tottered down the aisle, faced the congregation, and said:

'I outlived the bitches.'

here we are again

fixed it up a bit....

hee hee

Monday....

It was a good day today.

I only managed to offend one person. :) No seriously, i had a good day with myself today. Luxury. Its been weeks since i have been alone for so many hours in a row.

Signing off

xoxo

wierd

I had wierd stuff going on this morning.

when i woke up - my consciousness was dragged back to a trance like state - where i was told a Goddess was 're-emerging'. Very powerful stuff. it was like some ancient Goddess, who will be helping with something to do with the ascension process.

specifically 'communication', was what i got, which is why it was pertinent to me.

once i was 'let go', i tried to return but could not. i wanted to find out more.

i will leave this with you - anyone got any ideas.

interesting.....

Moving onwards and upwards.....

tomorrow is another day

i am a spiritual being having a human experience - i am here to learn and learning i am

i dont have full understanding - but stuff is making more sense today then it did even yesterday.


tis good

thanks for your support, i love you



in other news.....

yesterday i cleaned like a madwoman

this house was incredibly messy - there was shit on every surface, i kid you not.

everyone pitched in too and now we are sparkly and tidy.... well - it has been another 24 hours so the shine has come off somewhat.

that was the legacy of working every day last week unexpectedly, after our awesome retreat. Part of me wishes i was still there. Sometimes over the last few days - in awful moments - i would close my eyes and imagine i was still at stroud. recreate a room in my mind and spend a few minutes believing i was back there. ahhhh peace.

i also gave my homework a fair crack. i have done enough to keep me out of trouble - not as much as i would like though - i will do more. I want to do more. and i will.... true

i have also almost finished my tarot homework. i am halfway through 7 of 8. all good.

tomorrow (dont tell any local principals) i have all day to myself. aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh..... love it

i will finish that tarot stuff, then maybe get a bit more beltane done.

anyhoo

i am going to go and read my book for a little while before i go to bed

i will have a good night sleep too

i will

yes

nighty night
xoxo

saturday

trying to keep busy here doing copious amounts of house work before i have to do copious amounts of homework.

due to stroud i havent even started my beltane project or the tarot one  :(


needing to keep moving forward


my mind betrays me


and yes michelle - i knew that and that is precisely the problem


so off i go

back to avoidance


xoxo

more

i want to go back to stroud

it was incredibly relaxing. no pressure. no one to worry about but myself. luxury

i loved every bit of it

• the goddess necklet.
• the painting.
• the SoulCollage
• the food.
• omg the food.
• the silly dancing competition, go shann
• the group stories, hilarous
• Cindy came all the way from Cowra
• love you Cindy
• the food,
• the ritual, awesome
• my room
• the chapel
• the hallways
• the wallaby
• the altar
• both of them
• sticky date or fig or whatever it was - frikkin yum
• flowers
• haunted rooms
• friends
• sisters (and brother!!!)
• laughing... oh so much laughing
• pure joy
• solitary meditation in the chapel
• calcite - good choice Diana
• prayer flags
• photos
• strengths
• food
• Leanne - how good was it to see her again
• Mary and Cheryl arriving
• peace
• tranquility
• cows
• even funny sounding ones
• no television
• no radio
• no mobile phone coverage
• that incredible kitchen
• avalon fruit... yum!!!
• and more

i could go on... forever

i soooo love that place - I am soooo glad that i took my camera with me. last time i went up there i didnt have a camera with me. so i forgot some of the details of how wonderful it is. i have pictures now so i will remember it forever. sorry, am ranting.


check out the rainbow orb in this picture i took of the mother and child statue.

how cool

We're baaaack

Wow

Stroud Monastery was, on the most part, truly amazing.

There is lots i want to tell you about the weekend. It was all it was cracked up to be and more. I will do it tonight. Promise. I have photos too. Some have been posted on the Stroud Website. Here is one we did for fun...

Hee hee - what a beautiful picture on that wall

The place is incrediblly beautiful - i just love being there.

Learning, laughing, painting, glueing, meditating, eating, talking, i could go on and on.

I came home, desperately looking forward to today. A day off with no monastery retreat to think about and wonder if we forgot anything, no husband home on a weeks holidays, no kids, just me and my home and my thoughts. Then the phone call comes. Working all week (except thursday) because the office manager's father passed over and she wont be in. Damn it. Oh well. I told them ages back that i am unavailable on Thursdays. I am really glad i did now.

So - off to the shower am i.

a week of mrs office lady am i. in my least favourite school. looking forward to pay day.

hugs
xoxo

I'm back!!

Had a lovely time at the Bay. Really did.

Boy perked up heaps on friday arvo and his father ended up bringing him up on friday night - we just gave him the ensuite as his own and disinfected everything he touched. Remains to be seen whether he passed it on or not - hope not.

We rented a holiday house - and although it was 'not as described' - we had a great time. Good friends, lots of laughs, lots of walking, beach, sun, shopping, eating. All good. All the kids were fantastic - got along well and had a good time too. Excellent.

I hoped to catch up with Chelle while i was up there - but there just wasnt time.


I took some time to catch up with all the blogs and emails this afternoon. Renata's witches kitchen sounded hepas fun - how did Arek cope with his sister wives?? Happy birthday old girl!! will see you soon.

And the handfasting... geeze i wish i could have been there. I was thinking about Kay and Bill, and all of my sisters all afternoon yesterday. the photos look beautiful and am so glad that it turned out so well. Hugs and blessings to both Kay and Bill.

Faerie is coming back to YAAD. I am very glad for you Faerie. I know you have missed it and from past experience, it shouldnt be long before there is a perpetual 'Faerie Award' up there alongside the 'Diana Award'. Blessings to you Faerie.

Oh well - best get into the washing and putting away.

Looking forward to full moon this week and most of all our Stroud Retreat!!!! YAY. am very excited.
this should be an EXCELLENT weekend. cant wait.

xoxo 

Noice timing son...

pft

well today is the day we head off to the bay for 4 days of relaxing and good times with friends.

i wake at 3am this morning to the sound of vomit hitting porcelain. noice.

So - with getting up with the little fella every half an hour from then til 7.30..... can hardly keep my eyes open.


poor little bugger. he is shattered. as are we all. i think i will send the girls with their father and stay home with him tonight and hopefully go up with him tomorrow morning.

oh well - nothing happens without a reason - who knows.

now - to keep up the fluids.......

Help needed

I am trying to recreate my business card and seem to have lost the damn font that i used for the text and cant even remember what it is called.... silly me. I was wondering if anyone could identify it for me?? Here it is.... (not the big J's, they are hand written)