Sunday evening

Good evening my friends

I am in some kind of limbo this evening

That limbo when those that are closest to you bring down a verdict of disfunction.

OH yes, we certainly bring the fun back into dis fun ction



I must reflect and reflect some more

I apparently have some pretty offensive qualities



Sigh

I will admit to a bit of it, not all

I will try some and own my bits then let them go.

Because if I didnt own them I couldnt let them go.

Very good advice, thanks Robert.


So much going on,

So much to take in

Very intense time for me right now


It is heating up for sure

I dont know if that has anything to do with my going from a Personal Year 9 to a Personal Year 1.


Also, much to take in

My little brain feels like it is in overload right now.

Trying to learn completly new concepts that arent touching the sides.

And old concepts all need re examining too.

Sigh.

Worrying about my state of health sometimes....

My state of mental health that is...

I must not take this on, and I am not... I must just draw from it that which is pertinant to me and move on from there.

One positive thing that I can mention is that I can identify a couple of important techniques that I have learned over the last couple of days or so that will assist me in being objective and moving through stuff. Moving through without dragging anyting along with me. Very important this one.

tough call that one


I am naturally (being a virgo) very hard on myself.

I must lighten up a little.

I must learn to have faith.

This comes up again and again

My achilles heel.

Trust and faith.

This is the axis (astrological) under which I was born

The 'fear/faith' axis

Oh yes

That old chestnut


Obviously this is something that I need to learn

something that is mine to endure.




Lately, I feel really connected

like i just ask and it is there

that is what Robert was saying last night

If i think a question

The answer is there - in a milisecond

awesome


This is easy to accept in 'non life threatening' situations

On the surface i obviously allow instant contact

once it is important

i block it


self sabotage
another old chestnut


sigh

Lots to think about

might go down the rabbit hole with this one


must make sure i am on my track, my right track

back soon

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(¸.·´Lotsa luv from
Jen
xoxo

OK..

I am officially the worlds slackest blogger.

i had a nice time tonight at the cottages fifth birthday. Robert was very very interesting. food for thought for sure.

great food, lots of wonderful friends, all good



I am in a bit of a slump in my life at the moment and dont want to bore you or myself with the details. Sick of whinging pists.

Sigh

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(¸.·´Lotsa luv from
Jen
xoxo

Ewww

Just cleaned out the fridge. You know the green things at the back you cant identify?? All gone. Ah its a tough job but someones got to do it!!

In gratitude for

♥ Nothing growing in the fridge

♥ School days

♥ Glorious sunny winter days with cool enough mornings to put on a cardie but not to freeze any bits off.

♥ Peace and quiet

♥ Seashells and river stones


Enjoy your Tuesday.

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(¸.·´Lotsa luv from
Jen
xoxo

Is it Sunday already.....

Um, yes....

and it is even almost over.. well for this week anyway.


What a week it has been. There has been some ups and some downs. Some light bulb moments and some murky muddy ones.

Cant hope for better than that I guess.

In some ways I have felt like this week was a week to take a breather and a rest from the relentless emotional onslaught that is living with teenagers.

I actually was silly enough to say it out loud, and of course, Murphy heard me and whammo, hit me with a doozy. Its ok though.. I learned something from it and that is a good thing.


I am a little at loose ends going into this week. It is my first week without any work booked in and I am dangling a bit. I want something to keep my head and hands busy (I could do some housework, but hey... lol). I like to have something to think about - even if it is just what may be coming or running through the procedure for some computer task. I know, am weird. Deal with it, lol.

On the other hand, I am super super excited to be able to have some time this week to be CREATIVE. I dont know where to start so I guess that can be my thinking cap for tomorrow.


I have been dabbling in a little bit of creative writing this week. I have 'amused' myself by making little stories up about the plethora of images that get shown in my minds eye. Sometimes I get 'shown' a flash of an image and a feeling, then a story rolls through my head. I have never actually put pen to paper before but this week, for some reason, I did. Often this little 'story' is in response to a question that is asked of me.

Maybe at some point I will feel confident enough to post my 'stories'... maybe...



Just in case you are interested - last week I raved about how incredibly funny Good News Week was with Ross Noble. This evening I looked for the TV guide on Channel 10 website and discovered it on their site and you can watch the full episode online. It is Episode 15 if you are interested and here is a link. Just if you are interested.....


All in all, it has been a very busy, introspective week. I think I will finish off tonight with a gratitude list.

I am so, so, so grateful for -

♥ My bloggie friends. Of course you are on top of my list, where else?? I especially appreciate it that you do come back and read, even if I just ramble on with crap or be absent for days at a time.

♥ I would like to make a special mention of my friends Michelle and Jac who have both given me an award this past week - thank you so much, I will put it up and pass it on within the next couple of days I promise!!

♥ My family. The lessons I have learned and the experience I have gained from being in close proximity to these often challenging individuals has been priceless. Not to mention the huge amount of love and admiration that I have for them and their achievements.

♥ My health. In particular my healthy lungs, which have been smoke free for just on 9 months now. I am grateful to be improving my fitness levels and my body has begun to reflect this change.

♥ Warm blankets and fluffy slippers. Needed on these frosty nights and mornings and all in between. Brrrrr

♥ My sense of humour. Nuff said.

♥ Matchsticks. That are keeping my eyes open right now... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


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(¸.·´Lotsa luv from
Jen
xoxo

friday

Am struggling to come up with something, but sick of looking at the kid in the sepia picture. I am tired and busy. I need one of those little signs for the back of my car that reads 'mums taxi' as I seem to CONSTANTLY be driving some frikken kid or another here there and or everywhere.

Busy. Tired. Brain dead.

Missing Fix it Friday.

Missing photo opportunities that fit within my designated time frames...

need to strangle someone.

will go and do that now methinks..

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(¸.·´Lotsa luv from
Jen
xoxo

p.s.

Will blog tomorrow, I promise....