today is good......

I have had a reallly good day today.

No one has upset any apple cart too much, this is most excellent.

I went out with my two friends that i started kindergarten with, we get together usually at least once per school term for lunch in hamilton. we ended up at SJ's for their $10 lunch and can highly recommend it, huge delicious meals. I only ate half of mine and still couldnt eat tea this evening. It is always great to get together with these two amazing women, who have known me since i was five, and vice versa. We know all there is to know about each other, and understand and love each other dearly. Heaps of laughter and chat. Coffee and good food. Very cool. I feel blessed to have them in my life.

I may or may not be going to the fruit and vege markets tomorrow - will not know til the morning - love the bargains, but will not be too disappointed if i dont go.

I dont know what the weekend will have in store for me, the usual soccer on saturday.... after that... who knows!!

I am going to hit the sack now, will drop off here if im not careful.

ciao

dont know if im gun-oo keep it yet

hmmm - what do you think of the picture as header... too washed out??

changed the colours too. time for a change.

lots of things i have planned for the near future....

• gun-oo get thin
• gun-oo move more
• gun-oo blog more
• gun-oo have coffee with my friends tomorrow
• gun-oo go to the fruit and vege market on friday
• gun-oo try to save my family from falling into any nearby abyss'
• gun-oo clean this extremely messy house, not gun-oo let it get in the way of coffee or socialising though...
• gun-oo try to see what to do next on my arty farty painting... what IS that next layer?
• gun-oo stop saying gun-oo.....

sorry.... very silly i know..... (mission accomplished shrinkies!!)

had a nice day today, lovely little upward spike on the graph of hell. the other mary's did amazingly well today.... WHERE WERE YOU DEB??? we missed you.

one good point was that i managed to achieve 100% of the goals that i set last week... hmm, being silly again.... i left that part of the page blank. Oh dear.

yesterday was a day of regrouping. more sorting and sifting. more contemplating. some decisions were reached. some issues identified. productive certainly. i didnt manage to get any housework done though and hey, guess what, it is still here to be done today..... i suspect that it will still be here tomorrow too. domestic goddess ..... NOT!!!

Well, i might go to bed.

yawning, tired and a bit cold.

taa taa for now

AN IRISH FRIENDSHIP WISH

May there always be work for your hands to do;

May your purse always hold a coin or two;

May the sun always shine on your windowpane;

May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;

May the hand of a friend always be near you;

May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

sunday.....

Life is in my way so bad it is like having ayres rock blocking my path.

I feel immobilised and numb.

Helpless and adrift.


Hoping art tomorrow will allow me to re enter the world and think again.

hopefully.

I feel unable to go into details. Just surviving through emotional turmoil.

I do feel though that things are improving a little, and continuing on the upward trend.

This is normal for me - to retreat into my cave when i have information to process. I just feel really quiet and introspective. Not able to verbalise anything.

Keep remembering the saying "if god bought me to it, he will bring me through it".
this is helping.

i think it may be partly due to pluto retrograding back over the galactic centre. because it is retrograde, it means 'inner transformation' rather then 'outer transformation' which is what happened when it was direct.

I am certainly doing a lot of long hard thinking. sorting and sifting. ditching the old outdated beliefs etc. trying to find the 'essence' of who and what i am and how i fit in this world of mine that i have created.

why i persist on feeling unworthy. hmmm


one really beautiful bright spark happened yesterday. my neighbour from my previous house called in to visit. she is a wonderful wonderful person. reiki master. clairvoyant, super understanding and nurturing. god i have missed her. she came and we talked and talked. makes me smile every time i have thought about her since. we havent seen her for about three and a half years. how did i let it get so long between visits, especially since i drive right past her house several times a week. she revitalised me. i needed that. maybe that was the point where i started coming back.

oh well, might go to bed, only stupid motorcycle racing on telly as per every sunday night in this house and i am sick of my book

see you when i am looking at you
xoxo

Life is shit at the moment

sorry... dont mean to complain or be negative.

well, maybe i do....

no - deliberate bringing everyone down with me isnt my goal.




STOP THE WORLD... I WANT TO GET OFF.





have been a very slack arse blogger lately.

cant think of a poem like anchell



sorry

will go back and be a misery guts alone.....


P.s. - thanks kristy for the best laugh i have had in a long time. poor little ruby - poor you.
ah memories. i remember the days when i used to have a smelly white patch on the shoulder of everything i owned.

will try to blog more positively tomorrow

just wanted to let you know i am still alive...

jen
xoxo