positive sign number 147

That I have done the right thing in leaving my husband…

I went to the plant nursery today. I have done this lots of times before. I loooovvvee the nursery. I love wandering around the plants, and getting inspiration from the colours and the plants and the herbs etc etc etc.

however it was always overshadowed by a doom and gloom that when i took my purchase home it would be greeted with “what the f&%k did you buy that for?? Where is it going to go”… sigh

We had a quite extensive garden, and everything i could have possibly have bought home, could have gone SOMEWHERE. Anyone that had ever visited us could attest to that. So why the frikken power play.

Today I went to the nursery. I got paid for my very first paying photography portrait job since about the ‘90’s. I decided that i would use it to buy a plant of Joy. One to be cosseted and cared for and to represent my life of joy.

When i arrived, I was almost floored with JOY. I was soooo excited. I was shopping for a plant with absolutely NO chance of recrimination. And it was AWESOME!!!  Such a small thing but oh, so, wonderful. I was almost indescribably euphoric. I was walking on air. I couldnt have been any happier if I was given free choice to take whatever I wanted from THE MINT!!!

Sigh…. So happy….  So sure…. :)

Solar Eclipse - 5.42 am Eastern Standard Time 12th July 2010

I am the catalyst for the events that unfolds in my life. I am grateful for every part of it, no matter how great or how small. For each thing is a part of my evolution and my growth towards the divine. It is my thoughts, my intention, my heart, my mind, my faith that create the reality of my life as it is now.

As above, so below, at 5.42 am tomorrow morning, a significant solar eclipse will occur which is important in the whole Cardinal Grand Cross that is in the process of developing this year. At this time it is a good idea to put out intentions for what you would like to bring into your life and what it is you are willing to leave behind. As this eclipse is in Cancer, it also relates to the home and family - our roots and our tribe.

I am willing to release from my life fear, anger and unrealistic expectation. I release stress and blame. I release ill health and poor choice. I release those things and persons that no longer serve my greater good. I release the inability to see and hear clearly. I release the need to be judgemental.

My arms are open wide to embrace copious amounts of love, abundance, and vibrant good health. I welcome serenity, peace and respect. Safety and peace, knowledge and happiness. Personal growth, spiritual growth and creativity. I welcome for my family love, respect, communication and empathy. I embrace support, an ever widening circle of friends, understanding and careful listening. Appreciation and respect, peace, happiness and lots and lots of beautiful love.

So mote it be…..

Week # 25 I heart faces challenge - Celebrating Teens

I was so happy when I saw this weeks challenge as I had just finished taking some images of my daughter after their recent victory at the NSW Winterfest Cheerleading championship. I love this shot - it is so intense - far from her usual bouncing energy.

 

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disillusioned

so much going through my head right now..
The past week or so has been a whirl of activity and trying to fit about 26 hours work into 24, oh and still find time to sleep :)
Along with all this, I have had to work through some deep hurts inflicted by a person that means well, i know they mean well. But have been truly mack truck, bull in a china shop insensitive. This is bought upon by ignorance and a form of ‘self preservation’, I understand that - but I truly thought they were beyond that point. I have spent so many merry go rounds with this same issue, on so many occasions over the past goodness knows how long that I am totally against going up against it again. So I am choosing to grit my teeth and step over it all. Some people just never learn…
Family - gotta hand it to them. Just don’t get on your high horse with me… am over it
Personally, I am on a huge high. My life is incredible and things are working out amazingly well. My house has been blessed now by both the witches AND the bitches, lol, so all is good. An awesome weekend was had by all as my friends from years ago, when we were all school mums together, before I moved away, came over on Friday night and, well, yes, we had a ball and I think the clock read 2.30am when I fell into bed… what an awesome evening. I then went out on saturday night to a Trivia night. We came 3rd - not a bad effort considering how frikken hard those questions were… although I had to admit to doing more laughing then thinking for most of it… all good.
A huge week too, lots and lots to do.
I attended the one of the most incredible Tarot lessons I have ever attended on Tuesday. Wendy adapted a “wisdom of the aces” spread and it just blew me away. I was totally reeling for hours afterwards. Its incredible what came out, excellent news. Great timing and excellent tools in hand. I am truly grateful.
Tonight saw Kira play in her Semi final of Touch Football, they won so straight into the finals. She scored two of the three tries too, very proud. Raced from Touch along to the cottage for Yule Craft, that Deb and I had organised at the spur of the moment this week and … well… only her and I were there to put it all together. It didnt matter, we had a ball and laughed til we cried. She also made an incredible walnut cake and no one was there to share it with us… mmmmmm.
Anyhoo, am off now.
basking…. sigh
:D

today is the first day of the rest of my life…..

Today I have access to the internet again, after a week and a half off-line.

FINALLY!!!

 

Wow, that is a long wait - new connections take a week apparently. I guess there is more to it than flicking a switch or punching a few details into a computer. I don't think they fully understand how important it is to a person to be without her friends for a week :)

It has forced me to do more housework than normal though - and this is good. I am enjoying a clean and clutter free home.

 

Just to fill you in, just in case you don't know - a week and a half ago I got the keys to my new rental property and my kids and I moved in. Well, technically, we are still moving, lol, these things take time :)

It was a HUGE blur!! Last Wednesday week I didn't have a hope of a property, as I was turned down for the only one I liked since I started looking. Nothing was out there that was big enough. All of a sudden, that afternoon, I received a call from the property manager offering me the place I wanted all along. By Friday we had the keys and were moving stuff in. Saturday the 8th of May was the start of my new life. I am soooooo relaxed and happy.

A GINORMOUS thank you to Wendy and her husband (and kidlets :) for galloping at a moments notice with a truck, big manly muscles, energiser bunny style of motivational organisation and lots of laughs and bewildered scratching of the head (that last bit was just me). I love youse all, and wouldn't have done it without you. I owe you big time. And I have a large box of tea bags now :) very embarrassing - me not being a tea drinker and all - sorry Wendy.

Big thanks to my daughters friends, Mitch and Nathan. Who innocently asked did we need a hand and ended up being on the heavy end of quite a few bits of furniture. They are steering clear of me now - ITS OK TO COME BACK NOW GUYS, ITS ALL OVER :D

We are almost done. I still haven't bought over my books and there are a few pieces still hanging around in the walk in robe, waiting to come.

I still have about four boxes to unpack here - most of which contain decorative items and I am not quite sure where to put them yet. I also have an entertainment unit down in the garage, waiting for some strong arms to bring it inside..

I feel soooooo free. so relaxed and happy. I am blown away by how natural this seems, how normal and right, after living with someone and sharing their bed for 27 years… I would have thought I would feel some kind of angst. But no. It is the right thing for both of us. We are both content.

Please pop in :)

I have both tea AND coffee now. You are most welcome.

 

Today was the funeral of the son of a dear friend of mine. I am thinking of you Kay and sending you lots and lots of love. A mother should never outlive her own child. RIP Deano - I wish I could have known you.

 

xoxo