MAJOR WUSS HERE

Hi all

Thanks for your concern, am ok. Better tonight then last night. Am sorry for being such a baby, but i had horrific experiences at the hands of trainee dentists when i was a child at Ncle Hospital dental clinic. So bad that i have totally avoided all contact with them, only to get a tooth pulled. This is my fourth one, by the way, the only teeth i have had filled are the same four. This is the last one to come out of the four. They are my 6year old molars. My brother drowned when i was 6. He was revived, but was treated like the 'chosen one' by my mother thereafter (he still is really, 35 years later). I am wondering if this is what happened to all my 6yo molars. It is the only thing i can think of that happened at about that age.

Never mind. I am strong. I am protected. I am loved. I will survive this. After all, i have survived the birth of 3 children, i can survive this. I am probably being a bit silly, but we all have our issues dont we. I will have a giant bucket of Emergency Essence to see me through!!!

White out...

So I have changed the blog colours because I can.

Having a rather ordinary day, along with lots of others. It is very quiet in bloggsville.

Am tired with intermittent panic attacks about my trip to the dentist in 36 hours time. Trying not to think about it but every time I do my stomach sinks to my feet. I am being a big wuss I know. There are countless people out there dealing with stuff far worse then me.... gulp.

Going now to try and keep my mind busy.

Hello all

Hi....

Well I really lead a boring existence... one day kinda blurs into another. Another weekend is over now and it is only three more sleeps til i go to the dentist. Have been using a lot of positive thinking about the subject, but am still shitting myself (hey, just being honest). I promise i will not use any flimsy excuse to postpone it again. But if a REALLY good excuse comes along.... well.... just kidding.

I surf around the blogs a bit and there is a lot of gratitude going on out there, not only amongst the Mary's. Lots of lists. I have a bit of trouble blogging these lists because the things i would like to put on the said list make me feel a little silly. It is my blog though, and i can write whatever i damn well please.... if thats ok with you... kidding again.

So in my struggle to come up with something interesting to read, and write, here is the list of things i have been grateful for today....

• beautiful cool weather. Perfect sunny, cool day. My absolute favourite kind of day bar none. Warm enough to get around in skirt and top, warm enough for the mad kids to swim in the pool, cool enough at night to sleep comfortably.... aaaahhhhh.
• Neighbourhood children. Who have lots more electronic equipment then my children. I know it is very selfish, but because they all have more playstation games etc then all the kids in the street congregate at their house. They do come here sometimes, but usually my kids are out there for the day.... only coming back to eat.... bliss. (I love my kids i really do, but school holidays is a bit of the too-muchies sometimes)
• A popcorn maker from Coles for $14.99. The kids just think it is WONDERFUL. I actually hate popcorn, it gets stuck in my remaining teeth and I just cant cope with it, but the kids love it. And its healthy. And its cheap. Although i have been through a bag of popping corn in two days. Must go tomorrow and buy more.
• Foxtel - flicked over to channel 3 and all they had on was #$%*ing cricket. I love foxtel. I hate cricket. (I also do NOT get channel 7 or 10, even after the captain visited, plurgh.)
• My computer. Along with that, my internet connection. With the world at my fingertips. My friends just a click away. I feel FAR less isolated. I dont know what i would do if I couldnt read blogs, check out ebay, scroll around reading interesting info, finding beautiful pictures, I know you know all about this one.....
• My sense of humour. Today has been one of those days. Gotta find the funny side or.... I dont know what.....
• Some coloured pencils and a sketch pad..... and an old leather folder designed for a diary that i put them in. Schmick.

Hmmmm - am struggling now. List over i think.....

Think I might go and change the colours of my blog - just because I can.....

Have been having lots of dreams lately too. Blasts of cosmic energy, flowing right down through my chakras. Other people have been getting blasts of healing, as well as myself. Not only healing, but lots of information, that I feel is just at my fingertips when i awaken. I just wish i could remember them. Im sure i do on some level.

Well thats all i can think of right now.

Will try to be more interesting next time...

Luv Jen

xoxo

Still boring.....

Well please see previous post.

Life is non eventful.

Did some housework today in preperation for the onslaught of 2 stinking hot days. Will be hot, tired and irritable for sure.

Cleaning the pool today and fell in, frock, spectacles and all. Thank god/ess that i didnt have my mobile or anything of value on me. That was about the extent of my excitement for today. Unless you count dust bunnies. Im not counting them by the way.



Getting excited for dear 'Chell for tomorrow. She will be one independently mobile type non bussing mary for sure. Least she will get another crack at a more attractive licence photo.

I have to take a kid for an allergy test tomorrow. Dr thinks she may be allergic to chlorine!! That would totally suck for sure. She is a majorly water oriented pisces type kid. Lets just hope he is wrong. Might ask them to allergy test me. I know some things that would definately come up as positive - school holidays, housework, cooking, teenagers, dentists and cockeroaches for sure.

Speaking of dentists, i had an appointment for friday to get my broken tooth yanked out. Watched the weather channel last night before i went to bed, just out of curiosity. FRIDAY IS GOING TO BE 38 DEGREES. I had a major panic attack. Couldnt breathe. Started to cry. I DO NOT cope with the heat. I also do NOT cope with going to the D word. Combine the two and i could see myself hitting the floor for sure. Made the cowardly decision this morning and rang and postponed the appointment til next wednesday. I know, I know, i am a wuss. Too late, it is done now. Now i have to suffer anticipation for an extra 5 days. Whhhaaaaaaaahhhh. (thats me crying in case you didnt understand).

Oh well, someone had better go and clean the kitchen up of post evening meal debris. Fairies must be on strike so i guess it will be me. Husband is sitting glued to Joey Johns playing 20/20 cricket on the telly. Very important stuff.

Ciao
Jen
xoxo

Ho hum.... sorry but i am boring...

oh dear, what to write, what to write?????

It has been a pretty non eventful few days.

My soul sister and i went for a little drive into town yesterday arvo and spent a small fortune between us on back to school supplies at officeworks. Had a huge laugh though, we manage to laugh at anything when we are together.

She has gone home now... sniff sniff. I will miss her... COME BACK !!!

We are going down to Cowra for a couple of days at the end of the holidays so will have to be content with that.


I had a lovely peaceful time at the Spiritualist Church last night. Kaia was excellent as usual. She speaks and reads from the heart, its obvious to all. I dont get in there much anymore so it was nice to have a little quiet hour or two in the peace in there, specially in the middle of the school holidays.

I honestly cant think of anything interesting to say. 'Cept i got 6 packs of fruit mince pies from coles this arvo for $1 a pack. I LOVE fruit mince pies. They are not the best i have tasted but still, for 17c each, who could complain.

Am going to go and try to get an early night. I have not been in bed before 1am for a few nights now and am starting to feel the effects.

love to all
jen
xoxo