Battle of the Bush....

Well i thought i would join in on the whole bush battle bandwagon. Here is a picture of mine. It is very messy though, i think that it is because I have three children...... who has time for a manicured bush when there are so many kidlets running around ??? I dont know - I cant wait til they all grow up and then i will finally get to decorate my bush in really cool colours, maybe with a theme or something.... until then, its all in my dreams.

Was a little disappointed that it was so cold and wet on the day we put it up, i wanted to take it outside and give it a good hose. Not possible though, so consequently, the dust is still on it from last year..... bet santa sneezes once or twice when he gets close.... long as he doesnt drop my present though...

back later

jen

Sharing an email received today...... food for thought.

Don't cry because its over

smile because it happened

Pain and suffering is inevitable

but misery is optional

Yesterday is history,

tomorrow is a mystery,

today is a gift.

That's why they call it The Present

A good exercise for the heart is to

bend down and help another up.

Life is what you make of it....

kinda like Play Doh

The bubbling brook would lose it's song

if you removed the rocks....

Happiness comes through doors

you didn't even know you left open.

Everything is always okay in the end,

if its not, then it is not the end.

If all my friends jumped off a cliff,

I wouldnt jump with them.

I would be at the bottom to catch them.

A girl on the street is pointing up at the sky.

'Look, an Angel!' she yells.

A passerby laughs, 'You fool, that is only a cloud.'

How wonderful it would be to see Angels where

there are only clouds. How sad it would be to see

only clouds where there are Angels.

Here is a test to find out whether your

mission on earth is finished:

If you are alive, it isn't.

Sooooo cute!!!!

5 Things I really suck at.......

I saw this on another blog and thought i might do it....

1. LAUNDRY. I can wash the clothes. I can hang the clothes out. I can fold the clothes as I get them off the line (this is to avoid ironing most of the clothes). I can bring the basket of freshly washed, scented like a field of spring flowers, folded clothes into the house. That's where it stops. The baskets then get rifled through, mixed up, and scrunched (therefore requiring ironing) before they eventually get put away into various wardrobes. Hmmm - I am the lady of the laundry but not the lady of the putting away.
2. HOUSE CLEANING IN GENERAL - basically i suck majorly at house cleaning. A domestic goddess i am not!!! I can manage a passable living area and clean kitchen and toilet for visitors but you will almost always find all the bedroom doors shut. I hate this. I have friends and family who are clean freaks and it really shits me that i am not too. Although, sometimes i think 'get a life' when they moan about how 'messy their house is' - me all along knowing that it is at least 100 times tidier then mine.
3. SAYING NO - I am a sucker for that... I cannot say no - or should i say 'could not' say no. Have learned a bit lately and have been dropping responsibilities over the last couple of years but still.... just ask, i will do it!! Hmmmmm - see.... idiot!! I am almost finished with my 'official' volunteer commitments - end of this month - YAY. Will run and hide under nearest bush when anyone flaps over to me and says to me - "Jen, could you......" aaaaaaaaggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
4. FROCKING UP - have already posted about this particular affliction. Am notoriously bad for keeping my bra on, wearing make up and for dressing in anything other then comfy casual. Did anyone notice that i had my top on inside out last Wednesday night.... funny thing was, i put it on, thought it was inside out so i changed it. Hmm silly me.
5. MEDITATING - I have a 'monkey mind' and have a lot of trouble shutting it up!!! I am more of a 'wham, bam, thank you ma'am' type meditater. In and out quick - get the information and get going. I wish i could sit in contemplative meditation for hours butI am afraid it just isn't me.

I'M BACK!!!

Well here i am....

BACK

Bruised but not broken.

Have managed to realign myself after encountering a 'five car pile up' on my highway of life.

Things have been set in motion and i hold good hopes for the future.

Much has been running through my head lately regarding people and relationships - all relationships, love, family, friends, work, acquaintances....

Sometimes i get caught totally unawares - trusting and allowing others to 'be' while i get on with my own 'be-ing'. Then all of a sudden - WHAM - i am knocked for a six and things come crashing down on me - totally unexpected.

This has happened to me on more then a couple of occasions. Even more then once by the same person!!! Am i dumb or blind or something..... must be.

I then find out about all the things i have done to be hurtful or thoughtless towards someone - things that i didnt even realise i was doing. Is this others' way of dumping their shit on me what? Why do i always stand still and let them? Even sticking my neck out one more time so they get a better shot!! Idiot.... i am.... sometimes.....

I AM HUMAN!!! Therefore i have faults. If i didn't have faults or issues i wouldn't be here.

People grow and evolve. Change is inevitable. I am not the answer to anybody's prayers and nobody is the answer to mine. I am responsible to me and for me (and my children obviously). And while i may ask advice of others, and people ask advice of me - choices made past that are the responsibility of the individual.

I have a huge tendency to get trapped in my head and or completely besotted with something almost to the exclusion to everything else. This is not designed to neglect anything or anybody but just is the way it is..... (hmmm - oh for a toilet that cleans itself).

I must look up every now and again to smell the roses (and toilet) and participate in life around me more....

I must make sure i look out for and recognise the signs of when someone is pissed off with me for neglecting something.

I must make sure that the time i need to remain true to myself is not impeded upon by others and their expectations of me.

I must continue to grow and heal. Learn and love. Give and take. Balance.

I have rambled enough....

I MISSED YOU ALL!!!

MWA