hee hee

A - Z

Hmmm - is the eye a little freaky???

let me know ok....

I am boring - and i have a boring life. I cant think of anything to say but thanks for reminding me 'chell anyway.

I might do an A - Z thing like Lisa has been doing... hope you dont mind, Lisa?


A is for Airlie, my daughter who was suffering such bad PMT this morning that i had to let her stay home from school - she is SCARY!! God help any poor husband that she eventually gets....

B is for Bloody hell this is hard!!! and i am only up to B!!! Oh and Brad of course, my 18th birthday present.

C is for Children..... love em to death but they drive me nuts... and Coffee, shared with friends of course.

D is for Duffer who is having a baby any minute, cant wait.

E is for Egan - my son the monster truck.... energetic Aries boy who is bright, funny and extremely annoying sometimes.

F is for the swear word i am trying not to say too much and failing miserably.

G is for Goldbergs - my favourite place for coffee shared with friends.

H is for Housework. I suck at it.

I is for Imagination. If i can imagine it, it will be. Now i just have to get this from my head to my heart.

J is for Jennifer - the name i was christened. The name I hate. Although I am 'starting' to get used to being called it... thanks Lisa.

K is for Kira - My middle child. Well I mentioned the other two so I had better not leave her out. She is incredibly everything.

L is for Life's Lessons. They just never stop coming do they....

M is for Maxed Out - thats my head..... so muchy stuff is going around in there, it feels like it is going to explode.... explode moments are interspersed with completely blank moments.... hmmmm

N is for Noodles!! I cooked honey soy hoikken noodles for tea tonight and EVERYONE liked them. Definitely blogworthy - the instances of everyone liking something I cook is so rare - might buy a lottery ticket tomorrow.

O is for Oh dear, I cannot think of an O....

P is for Pastels - and the heaps-fun Arty Farty Mary Party we had on Sunday at the Cottage. Pastels are so much fun. P is also for Purple sPheres - I went a little overboard methinks. And for Phew - I am more then halfway there.

I started this post last night and got up to here. Got too tired and had to stop.

I think that is why Michelle growled at me, cause i cut and pasted instead of thought.

Sorry!!!

Q is for Quite hard these last few letters..... will struggle through, never fear...

R is for Rain - I love it!! Bring it down!!

S is for Spirituality. Which is my quest to know myself, and make a difference.....

T is for Touch Footy which is where i have been tonight.... and my boy scored his first ever try in this, the second from last game of the season.... YAY - very impressive.

U is for Up to my ears in housework... again.... housework is like threading beads onto a string with no knot tied in the other end, eh.

V is for Vivacious - which i wish i was..... i think........

W is for Wise. I feel extremely lucky to have lots of wise people around me....

X is for eXtremely tired, and often bored (stretching I know, but you get that!)

Y is for Yesterday, when i started this post and YAY, cause i am almost done....

Z is for Zzzzzz - am still very tired.

Signing out now

Enjoy your evening.

Luv Jen

xoxo

p.s. that was harder then i thought!

Some quotes....

What you are doing does not matter so much

as what you are learning from doing it...

To teach, one must know the nature

of those whom one is teaching....

A seed can't reach its potential without receiving

corresponding energies from the sky....

'tis good...

Its all good...

am breathing and moving forward with purpose, confidence and tools....

today is the first day of the rest of my life and there is every indication that it will be a good one...

will be trying to remain on some kind of level from now on without the wildly swinging pendulum of emotions and moods...

thanks for your support guys...

luv ya

jen

xoxo

am ok

sorry for the melodrama....

just another of the wildly swinging emotional pendulum moment that is living in this house...

sometimes i just lose it....

i kinda have it back now...

THE CAVALRY ARE COMING!!! ......... TOMORROW!!!

Yay!!

Have organised help and it arrives in the morning....

I know that there is something for me to learn from all this.... and am busy trying to work out what that is. Hopefully will have some more answers tomorrow arvo.

I think that this is just a foothill on my way down the other side of the mountain.... If i can just make it over this one, then i think i am just about home and hosed. ..... for now..... hmmmm

Sometimes things are a little too close to be able to see properly. Sometimes i think things through too much, and think myself into total confusion... connie confused... thats me.

sorry....

am rambling.....

rambling rhonda you can call me now....

bye for now
ronny the rambler
xoxo

I cant blog....

Am p'd off.....

I want out!!!

STOP THE WORLD, I WANT TO GET OFF!!!!!

Shit on top of shit on top of shit.

I give up....

What in the bloody hell did i choose this life for???

........

am going now.....

to sit in a corner and rock.....

Honey.... I'm home!!

Wow - 6 days since my last post... thank you for the reminder Michelle...

I promise that I will get back on later and blog something real.

For now, I just got this email from Edgar J Winter Astrologer.. and here is a message that might affect a few of us Mary's (and others)... I think it kinda explains it eh...

Special note for those born 1963 to 1965!

If you are about 42 to 44 years old the Eclipse of 13 degrees Virgo on Sunday 4th March is sitting on the space that Pluto held during those years at your birth. You have lately been in a cocoon and now you are being urged out to become a butterfly! Some of you might alienate others and at times you will feel antisocial perhaps resisting change too much. You need human comfort and intimacy and positive self affirmation from others. Miracles can occur to you this next 6 months and whatever stationery feeling you may have experienced recently this is a prelude to a miraculous rescue by higher forces.

Hmmmm - I can relate....

Back soon....

Jen

xoxo

Somewhere over the mountain....

Back again... well I got over the hump and am sliding down the other side....

I have done lots of thinking and trying to put things into perspective.... trying to work out what my role in the latest fiasco's is... what there is for me to learn.... there is something, there is always something even if it takes a lot of thinking to figure it out....

Have a lazy week planned.... intend to do lots more thinking, some art (the one i talked about doing a couple of weeks ago.. hmmm, eventually i will get to it), lunch with my sister in law.... am also endeavoring to plan in some housework time.... cant promise anything though..

Might hit the sack... tired as usual

dealing with shit....

Here I am again..... dealing with shit.... pardon the swear word.....

How many times does something have to come up for me - for me to be able to transcend the rubbish and move on..... obviously some thing i considered an asset of my personality is a liability.....

am dealing with loss..... loss of trust..... trust that was only recently regained.... misplaced?? I dont know.... Is this my shit or theirs..... more pondering obviously necessary.


On another note - have finished proof reading Helens book.... YAY - good to have it finished for her. I have to say that I am very impressed and cannot wait to get a copy of my own in my hot little hands. This is more a reference book - not something you can read and put down, but will keep referring to it over and over again. Look out for this one, highly recommended. And i am not just saying this because she is a friend of mine - if i thought it was ordinary, i just wouldnt mention it.

I dont have any upcoming work on the horizon that I know about... so am a free agent for the time being.... ahhhhh, bliss......

am very tired. time for bed. It annoys me now that the girls are teenagers, that they stay up later. I used to use this time after all the kidlets went to bed as a winding down, me time. Now they stay up late, I am staying up later and later just to get some peace. Hmmm, might have to start locking them in their cupboards earlier each night, no matter how hard they complain....

how do you like my chances, you other mothers of teens....

going now

luv ya's
Jen
xoxo

Why, why, why......

do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting dead?

Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough money?

Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?


Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?

Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?

Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?

Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?

Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "lisp"?

If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?

Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?

Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale?

Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?

Why is it that no plastic bag will open from the end on your first try?

How do those dead bugs get into those enclosed light fixtures?

When we are in the supermarket and someone rams our ankle with a shopping cart then apologizes for doing so, why do we say, "It's all right?" Well, it isn't all right, so why don't we say, "That hurt, you stupid idiot?"

In winter why do we try to keep the house as warm as it was in summer when we complained about the heat?

How come you never hear father-in-law jokes?

still here....

I am a very bad girl..... I forgot to pay our phone bill...... So today they barred my account, and I can't ring out, but you can ring in..... If you need to talk to someone,please call me... I am shattered to be without a phone.... I cant cope...... For some reason I still have Internet though, and its all on the one bill. Thank the powers-that-be for small mercies.

BIG NEWS TODAY

My big baby girl got a job at McDonald's.

I am now the mother of a child with a job.

This is most excellent, though I think I might have to go and buy myself one of those "Mum's Taxi" signs for the back of my car.

And she still thinks I am going to pay for everything while she saves to get her LIP PIERCED!!! I don't think so sunshine.... I will be encouraging her to buy all she can see so the money never amounts to enough to do any piercing.

I have worked every day this week, hectic and hot.... good though, glad to be busy.

On my first day off I will be toddling off to try and make good with a bus for the Mary escape. Seems a popular decision, running away on a road trip across Australia. Woo Hoo, lets go.

Speaking of going, I am off to bed.......

Yup.......

Well I have survived the first week back to school. I had one big boy go into Year 1 - its very cool not to be the youngest in the school finally - because he went to Young Starters the year before last, he has effectively been in kindergarten for two years running..... very big boy now!!!

One girl also started Year 7, she is in the CAPA class (creative and performing arts), i think the first thing she informed the class was that she is loud. I am so glad that she told them that.... they would NEVER have figured that out for themselves..... hmmmmmm

Another girl into Year 9.... now it all starts to get a bit scary for me... a 15 year old.... in my house.... hmmm .... i can remember being 15..... (note to self - find patience, tolerance and strength before August this year)

I feel that this will be a good year for me. Last year seemed to be a year of reconnecting and mopping up. Getting ready so to speak. Well I am ready now - I have been freed up in so many ways - EXCELLENT. I even read a book yesterday, bliss. Have a project in mind for an artwork for my wall - got inspiration while in the shop Blue Star Elements in Darby St. Love that shop.

Some things on my mind today are:-

• Should I pursue a career in proof reading books. Am enjoying doing Helen's book.
• How much it would pay... would it be worthwhile, reading interesting books would be fun, not so fun if the book was boring as batshit.
• Where is my friend Cindy??? What happened to the blog addiction that she was supposed to have?? Her last post was titled "Bludging".... was that a sign of things to come... COME BACK CINDY!!!
• How do you console a child who gets a Year 9 elective that she didn't want?? Phone calls to the school has not resolved the matter. This is a course she will now have to do for two years..... Build a bridge??....
• Why am I so tired all the time?
• Why does Lisa think the name Jennifer suits me. I think it sounds stuck-up and posh - neither of which i am. I have only been called Jennifer when I am in trouble. Am I in trouble Lisa?? lol

A little while has passed since i started writing this post. The full moon is alive and kicking around here. We had a major meltdown...... Teenage hormones in full swing. Mother hormones in full swing. Sometimes I wonder why I bother.

Might do a Thelma and Louise. Anyone wanna come???

Will just crawl back into my corner now...

Catch you later....