Today is the day...

and i am just a little bit excited.

yippppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday...

Have had some fun today with my daughters and their besties. We went into the Art Gallery to see Art Express, the exhibition of HSC major works from last year. My office boss' son has a multimedia piece in it. Wow - if you havent already gone for a look, i can HIGHLY recommend it. Totally amazing. Hard to believe that they are so young. I have lots of favourites.

Afterwards we went for hot chocolate a Goldburgs, then into King Edward park and Honeysuckle for a photo shoot. Here are some of my favourites.

Airlie

Kira

you can probably tell we were going for the emo look. Here is a couple of fun ones

The Toyota leap

i think this is monkey impersonations

Have a nice Monday... I am working. and working tuesday too. sigh. Will be there Tuesday night and wednesday night too. Looking forward to that. And Saturday night - wow - still have some work to do for that so i had better go and do it.

Luv Jen

xoxo

Interesting Health Fact
Did you know that in the human body there is a nerve that connects the eyeball

to the anus? It's called the Anal Optic Nerve, and it is responsible for giving

people a shitty outlook on life. If you don't believe it, try to pull a hair from

your arse and see if it doesn't bring a tear to your eyes.

... hilarious. Assuming of course that you have a hairy arse!?

Thursday....

Well, here i sit, with my eyes hanging out of my head waiting to go and pick AJ up from Maccas at 10ish. Lucky thursday is the only late night they are open, because it is an express store, and shuts at 7 every other night - good choice of stores that.

Had a rude shock at YAAD today. FIVE FRIKKIN WEEKS. Sorry Lisa, am still not over that. What the hell am i going to do with myself on a thursday for FIVE FRIKKIN WEEKS. I will probably have to be retrained because i will have forgotten everything by then.

Five weeks........ sigh



Oh well

Can you give me a research assignment or something. preferably something to do with art or something like that. I need to do something - or i will slip back into being human again.


sigh.... five weeks.

what have i started...

I have really started something with my rant the other night. I am sorry if i upset anyone but i was feeling quite violated by someone who knows me from my 'mundane' life and used the information that they found here and gossiped about me. I fully understood the risk of writing what i did and before i hit [publish] i hesitated for a little while. I just hoped all would be well. Well, it wasnt. And i will never publish sensitive information again, particularly when it involves my family.

I agree with everything everyone has said on this subject. It was my fault for putting it out there and I should have been more careful. I like what Faerie said - and want to try to use my blog for more inspiring of myself and others. When i think about it - i only really use this blog to rant and rave. what good for mankind is that. hmmmmm

Might go away and ponder this for a while.

And come back with something that i hope everyone looks at, regardless which of my selves they know. (and only a little bit of ranting)

mwa
xoxo

Its over

The StarStruck circus is finally over.

yay


I do love it - but by now am totally over it.



I always sit in that NEC in a mild state of panic - placing heaps of protection around the whole joint. I always think of fires, or bombs, or the stand collapsing or something.... I know, i m a scaredy cat


Ah shit

another chapter in a teenagers life

aj just got picked up by her 19 year old cousin, and they are catching a train to sydney tomorrow morning to see some band. Hmmm - the furthest the umbilical cord has ever stretched. Will worry now. Emma will look after her. I wish it was tomorrow night and she was home already.

am going to bed now

tired

yawn

xoxo

distrustful feelings

Oh me, oh my

I am struggling a bit tonight. I have had a pretty full week or so. With lots to do, working heaps, plus the starstruck circus is back in town. Been pretty full on really.

I am a bit dissapointed in human nature. and particularly distrustful of my own judgement. there are those who... shall we say.... pass by blogs. Without doing the courtesy of leaving a comment every now and again.... and - well......yes

I understand this is a public blog that is posted to the world freely of my own will. And is totally open for all to see.

I just think that MORALLY - particularly if you come from another part of a persons life, or even their other split personality - you come back time and time again... you should COMMENT every now and again. otherwise it just feels like SNEAKING. And please dont use what you read here against me. This is MINE. My thoughts, my feelings, my ranting, my shit. Out there for me - and because Michelle picks on me if i dont (although you have shown remarkable restraint this time 'chelle... thank you).

Ok.

Another topic all together. I have just been given another example of how i have NO IDEA when it comes to making a judgement about whether people acutually like me or not. I have been totally deceived by someone who I held in the highest regard. I trust that people are being true and honest when I am with them. Nice to my face and obviously (now) they dont like me. Shit. I am hurt and down about this. I cant think for the life of me what i have done wrong. Nothing. Its her shit not mine. But still.... it hurts.

How do i trust my judgement now. I just see what is put in front of me and dont try to read other motives into words or actions. Naive - obviously. Shattered.

Although i can see the same thing happening with my daughters. That is the significance of the Boab tree at the top of this post. The remedy for healing negative family patterns. Oh yes. We certainly put the 'fun' back into dysfunction.

Hmmm. Grrrrrr. Tricked. Deceived.

What do i do now. I dont want to be suspicious of everyone. I dont want to be on high alert and looking during every encounter for deceit.

Am going now.

To play something mindless on Facebook. Forget for a while.

Love to you - who are honest and real. Go away those who arent.

It goes on....

We went to the doctors today and it is all good.

He was horrified when i told him about the knobhead counsellor. He had a little talk to her and was able to suggest some things to her that were taken well. We had the stitches removed and although horrendous, looks fine and clean.

He agreed that the pill would be a really good place to start, considering her suffering very heavy, lots of pain, the acne and massive mood swings - he even went into his magic cupboard and gave us four months supply. I love him.

So we are all positive and have some tools and hormones - schweet.

Hopefully this one agrees with her - am choosing to believe that we are following the right path here. He gave us the web address of Mood Gym - which is Cognitive Behaviour Therapy - will check this out myself - it is http://www.moodgym.anu.edu.au/ . Tools. Tools are good.

Thanks for your support, and though we have a long way to go, i feel we can do it!!

Luv jen
xoxo