Tuesday, 13 July 2010

positive sign number 147

That I have done the right thing in leaving my husband…

I went to the plant nursery today. I have done this lots of times before. I loooovvvee the nursery. I love wandering around the plants, and getting inspiration from the colours and the plants and the herbs etc etc etc.

however it was always overshadowed by a doom and gloom that when i took my purchase home it would be greeted with “what the f&%k did you buy that for?? Where is it going to go”… sigh

We had a quite extensive garden, and everything i could have possibly have bought home, could have gone SOMEWHERE. Anyone that had ever visited us could attest to that. So why the frikken power play.

Today I went to the nursery. I got paid for my very first paying photography portrait job since about the ‘90’s. I decided that i would use it to buy a plant of Joy. One to be cosseted and cared for and to represent my life of joy.

When i arrived, I was almost floored with JOY. I was soooo excited. I was shopping for a plant with absolutely NO chance of recrimination. And it was AWESOME!!!  Such a small thing but oh, so, wonderful. I was almost indescribably euphoric. I was walking on air. I couldnt have been any happier if I was given free choice to take whatever I wanted from THE MINT!!!

Sigh…. So happy….  So sure…. :)

8 comments:

Wendy said...

Oh, Jen, that's wonderful!!! So what plant did you end up choosing? Don't make me guess!!!

Wendy said...

Ummmmm, was it a butterfly plant, pineapple sage and two types of purple pansy?

red79 said...

I know that feeling all to well Jen!! It is very liberating to be your own person again isnt it? xxx

Natalie said...

Wonderful on both counts -plant and portrait. :)

Michelle said...

I love it! Small miracles :)

Cyndy said...

*sigh*... xoxoxo

WhimsiGals said...

You deserve it!

Faerie,
xxxx

Lydia La La said...

Good for you. Been there and done that. I always say the best day of my life was when I ran away from home.