I have never felt something so cold. Cold and like marble. Cold and at peace. Finally out of pain. Finally able to run and jump and dance. Finally happy. After sooooo long.
I love you so much mum.
I am sorry.
I made mistakes and i want you to know that i had no intention of hurting you. I wish I could have been there for you in your last moments. But I take comfort in knowing that you didn't know what hit you. That you were gone before you even knew what was going on. If at all.
I have worried about you for longer than I can remember. Now you are gone, I feel a void that I don't know how to fill.
Oh and the kids. They are shattered. They have all written something for you. I know you already know.
You will be missed more than you will ever know.